Journal Entry: Relaxing Into Wealth
April 22, 2025
This morning, I woke before the alarm and sat in the quiet of dawn, watching the sky shift from navy to periwinkle to a pale, luminous gold. In that moment of stillness, a profound realization washed over me: I’ve been approaching abundance all wrong.
For years, I’ve chased wealth with clenched fists and gritted teeth. I’ve pushed, strained, and forced my way toward financial goals, operating from a place of scarcity and fear. Each milestone became not a moment of celebration but merely a brief respite before the next frantic climb. No wonder abundance has felt so elusive – I’ve been actively repelling it with my energy of desperation and control.
Today, I’m making a commitment to relax into wealth rather than wrestle it to the ground.
The Paradox of Surrender
There’s a strange paradox I’m beginning to understand: the more I force outcomes around money, the more resistance I create. It’s like trying to hold water by squeezing it – the tighter my grip, the more it slips through my fingers.
Relaxing into wealth doesn’t mean becoming passive or abandoning ambition. Rather, it means shifting from forceful doing to aligned being. It means recognizing that the universe operates on principles of flow, not friction.
When I release my white-knuckled grip on exactly how and when prosperity must arrive, I create space for unexpected opportunities and resources to find me. The strangest part is that this surrender actually makes me more effective. My actions come from inspiration rather than desperation, and doors open that I couldn’t have kicked down through sheer force of will.
Signs I’ve Been Forcing
Looking back, I can see the symptoms of my forcing mentality:
- Constant exhaustion and burnout
- Anxiety that gnaws at my enjoyment of the present
- Resentment when others appear to succeed with less effort
- A sense of unworthiness unless I’m visibly struggling
- Difficulty receiving compliments, gifts, or unexpected windfalls
- The belief that if something comes easily, it doesn’t count
These thoughts and feelings have been my constant companions, disguised as virtues like “work ethic” and “drive.” But they’ve actually been barriers to the very abundance I seek.
Allowing as a Practice
Today I’m beginning a practice of allowing. This means:
- Noticing when I’m straining – That familiar tension in my shoulders, the shallow breathing, the mental chatter about not being or having enough. These are my signals to pause and shift.
- Trusting divine timing – Releasing my arbitrary deadlines for when prosperity “should” arrive. Perhaps the universe has better timing than my limited perspective can envision.
- Following energetic alignment – Pursuing paths that feel expansive and light rather than constricted and heavy, even when the latter seems more practical or direct.
- Receiving graciously – Accepting help, opportunity, and abundance without feeling I must immediately reciprocate or prove my worthiness.
- Celebrating what flows easily – Honoring my natural gifts and the prosperity they attract without downplaying them as “just luck” or “not real success.”
- Releasing the how – Remaining clear about my desires while surrendering attachment to the specific path by which they’ll manifest.
- Creating from fullness – Operating from a place of gratitude for what I already have rather than fixating on what’s lacking.
The First Glimpses of Change
Already, in just the few weeks I’ve been practicing this approach, I’ve noticed subtle shifts. The unexpected referral that came after I decided not to force a networking opportunity. The creative solution that appeared during a walk when I’d stepped away from anxiously brainstorming. The refund check that arrived the day after I made peace with a financial setback.
These aren’t dramatic windfalls (yet), but they’re breadcrumbs on a path that feels fundamentally different – lighter, more joyful, and paradoxically more productive.
I’m beginning to understand that abundance isn’t something I achieve through struggle; it’s my natural state when I remove the resistance created by forcing. Like water finding its level, prosperity flows most freely along the path of least resistance.
A New Relationship with Wealth
Perhaps the most profound shift is in how I’m coming to view wealth itself. No longer is it merely a number in an account or a collection of possessions. True abundance is the freedom to be fully present, to create from joy rather than fear, to share generously because I trust in the infinite supply available to all of us.
In relaxing into wealth, I’m not abandoning my dreams – I’m allowing them to arrive in ways far more magnificent than my limited perspective could have engineered.
Tonight, as I close this journal entry, I set an intention to continue this practice of allowing. To notice when I slip into old patterns of forcing and gently guide myself back to surrender. To trust that when I align my energy with abundance rather than scarcity, I become a natural conduit for prosperity in all its forms.
The path of allowing may be subtle, but I suspect it leads to treasures far greater than the path of force could ever reveal.
Note to self: Re-read this entry whenever I feel myself slipping back into struggle mode. Remember: ease is not laziness; it’s alignment.
